tHaT's WheR wE LiVe...

‘Writing is nothing but mere indulgence of one’s mind that might even change the whole trajectory of one’s life.’ I do not really know what these words mean exactly. However, I made those up myself. Sounded way out of elegance I could ever meet myself one day. Nevertheless, I am here writing this on my own.

I am feeling so offbeat and unwieldy fresh at 5 am in the morning, Not that I went to bed early at night and hooped this early morning. I am a far cry from acting that weird. Because it has been so many years, I’ve been longing to practice this sleeping early and getting up early kind of thing. In addition, it just seems as impossible as of dreaming umm...running for American president. Not that I really dream about but couldn’t come up with anything more impossible.

I do not know what is keeping me so fresh. However; I might be hovering over this two unusual quirk, I have developed recently. Late night imbibe of caffeine like the one they show in the advertisements. ‘Hi I am Karan Johar’ says that abnormal , successful film maker and this one guy says to Deepika Padukone another victim of abnormality(if love ajkal wasn’t so fun watching I could never stand this abnormally tall badminton player turned superstar) ‘who ,uncle??’Yes, of course in this one ad promoting Nescafe. Ads are fun watching. However, hate these shampoos, toothpastes and beauty fairness creams ads. I ve been using this Garnier Fructis hair fall control they say. But it is only germinating more dandruffs and truning me into Zinedine Zidane very soon. And its even worse coz I can’t even take the vigilant eyes off my bald head for I am worse at football skills.

Tranquility of watching late night-early morning movie shows and getting obsessed over it might be another argument for my bewildered sleep. ‘The kite runner’ movie based on the book titled the same by Khaled hosseini is the reason I am still lost in atypical thoughts. May be that’s the reason I am trying to act like a real writer, which I am not clearly. A writer doesn’t talk about toothpaste, ads at early dawn, and feeds the same crap to his blog readers.

May be sometimes it’s a good thing, to act. It gives you the chance to feel like the characters you are acting of and partly elates rejoice. It might even inspire you to continue the same act over and again that might eventually turn you into a character you are acting. Might even be a new lease on your life, who knows. But I can conclude, its one big tough job, acting. Last time I tried to act, It was this sick character ‘Raj Babu’ from a Xerox of one Korean movie ‘mero auta sathi cha’. And this sick dialogue ‘Dr. ma Shika lai ghar laijana chahanchu........’. I really do not see a point of wasting  budget for that ‘a dime a dozen’ movie. Nonetheless, acting is real tough. Now I am acting like a writer, which also has been tough and more like a drop in the bucket.

The movie ‘ The kite runner’ embraced all the emotions. A loyal friend, betrayal out of jealousy, soviet invasion (not an emotion, but an episode of traumatized banishment from one’ country Afghanistan). An enduring pain of betrayal and the same guilt dragging him all the way back from USA to Taliban invaded afghan to bring back his nephew under Taliban’s duress.

Movies they tell about lives, they touch heart and actors they work hard (they really do in Hollywood). But it seems like impossible for our superstars in Nepali film industry to realize this fact. Most of us reading this haven’t watched a single or very few Nepali movies for that I am not proud at all. But they are abnormal. We get this huge laughter when they soak in tears and they get on our nerves while they try hard making us laugh. Movies are really ally to nation’s pride. If you produce good movies, your culture dominates the rest. You know how Korean fans are emerging out of cavity in every parts of our country?? I would call a disaster though. Fierce looking Mongolian people turned into she-male. Last time I met this girl who said, she looked like a Korean a few years back and now she has gone a little black morphosis  plus a little busy with her life and she regrets losing her Korean look. I mean Korean look has abruptly changed the beauty parameters. Its not a look it’s a beauty scale these days. I contradict with this new beauty scale they have recently introduced. But my point is they could do this in our country just because they could hit the nerve of our apathetic youngsters (who is buys doing nothing) through their movies and dramas. I can’t imagine anyone trying to emulate Rekha Thapa’s vulgar dress sense anywhere in the world. Its worst tolerating these actors and the movies produced than no actors and no movies at all. I do not see, they even trying to come up with a good one. I do not watch you people not because I don’t want to but I can’t, you guys are so wrong about acting. You people so much suck.

I guess our leaders are good at acting than our actors.. Last time I read this news, they table talk group of thugs masked politicians. The reporters await with a hope to be the 1^st correspondent to seize this news of political consensus. And to their surprise, abandoning all the national issues they meet this consensus; what would be the dialogues of each thugs, what will they be bull shitting about the meeting. Something like ‘ Ya we are positive, we are very close’. Don’t believe me they rehearse the dialogues? You might wanna check nagariknews.com. Retards, they do it so fine that the newspapers award them with the front-page publicity with their close up pictures. That is where we live. The place where an actor can’t act and a politician can’t draw up good policies but act. A place where people don’t know what ‘mind your own fucking business’ means.